Fighting Lessons

First and foremost, thank you so much for your support of The Tallest Virgin in the World. Your emails and social media messages meant and mean the world to me. It received good ratings and we are still waiting on pins and needles to see if it goes to series! I will definitely keep you updated.

With that said, I have to admit that I have been on somewhat of a low, after that amazing high of seeing something I worked so hard for, coming to fruition. In so many ways, I worked my entire life to gain a platform, such as a national television program, to show women everywhere that they are beautiful JUST the way they are and furthermore are created specifically for a purpose. Then it drops and…nothing.

Now, I know that God is working behind the scenes and that His plan is the only plan but right now I am being attacked in so many ways. From personal to professional, I have been tested in the days since the pilot has aired. I was at a very high point of frustration when it hit me…

When God wants you to grow and prepare for the next step in your life, He makes you uncomfortable.

Yep. He does it on purpose.

Think about it. If you were happy and comfortable why move? Why grow? We would never make a change if there was no reason to. That uncomfortable state is a tool God uses to craft you into what he wants and needs you to be.

So if you are uncomfortable like me, don’t stew in it. Learn from it and prepare for your breakthrough. That frustration is a step to unlocking a new path that will lead to everything God has planned for you. Don’t give up.  It’s hard rounding that corner but think about all of the effort it took to get there.

Don’t fight the lesson, learn it.

Pop Quizzes and Speed Bumps

This story has been on my heart since last week. I am not sure why I am sharing it, but know that there is a purpose for it.

On this particular day I was extremely tired, in a bad mood but had a lot to accomplish. I was running errands at lunch and noticed a woman who was riddled with illness. Her hands were permanently clenched, back painfully arched and both legs were barely keeping her up. She had a cane and was literally stepping in inches to her destination.

Regardless of her illness, her pride was shining through. She wasn’t giving up. Even if it took her hour to get down the corridor, she was going to make it on her own. I wanted to help her but could tell that it would be an insult to do so. She was determined to beat her body. Her mind wouldn’t let her physical state win.

I immediately felt ashamed of my ridiculous worries and insignificant feelings. Who was I to inflict self-strife for such futile emotions? She had every reason to throw an extravagant pity party and chose life, faith and focus. With tears welling up in my eyes, I looked away from her in sheer disgust for myself.

And then she stopped,

smiled,

demanded eye contact,

and said hello to me.

Her hello was a distinct lesson for me. She was not her illness, she was a person walking forward in faith through the fire who would not let me walk by without showing me that I could do it too.

I have been through a lot in my life, weathered many storms, but the insignificant day-to-day ‘struggles’ in many ways affect me more than life changing events. Why do I have insurmountable faith in overcoming large obstacles in my life and not the same resolve for the speed bumps that happen on a daily basis? If this woman could take the time out to smile through her enormous test how could I continuously fail pop quizzes?

The answer is, I can, I will and you can too. No matter what is going on, from tiny to gigantic, walk in constant faith knowing that this is all in the plan. Every state is there to shape you into the exact form that you need to be in to execute God’s plans for you. The tests prepare you for the execution. They all require faith. One isn’t any more important than the other. Stand tall and learn from them rather than wallowing in the discomfort they create.

I am going to make a concerted effort to live these words and maybe I wrote this to show you that you can do it too. Thanks for listening.